Fragile peace

All_ I wanted was a piece of grass
To walk barefoot, forget the past
Take my shoes off, and feel the sand
Careless, not needing you to hold my hand.

All_ I wanted was to sleep in peace.
To keep the doors unlocked, be calm and still.
Still arms and eyes shut, knowing
you'd still catch me if I was falling.

And watch_ you grow like a tree,
For love's nothing but a seed.
To become, to thrive together,
Protect ourselves become our shelter.

All_ I wanted was to breath
When each of my shaking bones asked me to leave.
I stayed, I just wanted the now_ to last.
Stuck in the memory of all that happened too fast.

All_my words like knifes
I had to swallow
To protect us from our downfall
They eventually tore_ my body open, 

Bled me dry_

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You said only I can decide to trust you
So I did, I trusted you, and you broke me.
And broken, I decided not to trust you,
and so, I began to see the the wreck unfolding.

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You asked me to trust you...
So I told myself not to trust myself
To trust you instead
You said you had a good memory,
You recalled best,
So I told myself not to trust myself
To trust you instead
Look what a mess you've made.
I guess now I know
What it's like to miss a shadow
The shadow of a friend
The shadow of a human.
 

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When do they stop
The sleepless nights
The thirst for truth
The thirst for compassion?

When does it stop
And when do I start?
I want to start
I want a fresh start
A brand new...

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